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Wheels | Oct 30 2002

him: just tried something dumb
him: tried to do this w/ my eyes closed
her: and?
him: wanted to think that way
him: it makes me feel closer
him: to you
him: in my thoughts
her: but?
him: but of course I couldn’t see what you were writing/saying
her: lol
him: dumb
her: the only thing that will calm me now
her: is to touch you
him: yes, I know
him: I mean
him: I feel that too
him: that way
him: can I tell you a story?
her: yes
him: I have these friends at MIT
him: genius types
him: whatever
him: but really really smart
him: one guy does quantum computers
him: right now these computers can only add 1 + 1
him: it’s funny
him: he has a giant magnet
him: that costs $50,000
him: it’s by his desk
him: anyway this isn’t the story yet
her: …
him: right
him: the story is
him: about a different friend
him: he showed me around the media lab
him: ever hear of it?
her: i’ve been there
him: cool. when?
her: i was the actress
her: for a project
her: they were doing
her: but the guy made a pass
her: so i quit before it was done
him: gross
him: whatever could have motivated him?
her: yeah yeah
her: did you see the birds?
her: at the media lab?
him: no. tell.
her: the film of the birds?
him: no. tell.
her: projected on either side of a hallway
her: and when you walked through the hallway,
her: the birds, pigeons
her: would fly away suddenly
her: like you had disturbed them
him: ah, brilliant
her: it was
him: this other thing was too
him: they had a prototype of it
him: you put your hand over these tiny wheels
him: and another person puts their hand over another set of tiny wheels
him: the two sets could be anywhere in the world
him: and when you move your hand
him: the other person can feel it
him: it was kinda like touching hands
her: can we buy one
her: ?
her: now
her: ?
him: we’re doing the wheels in our heads
her: no. not good enough.
her: i want the wheels.
him: what about the wheels in our hearts?
her: i want the hand wheels.
him: fine I’ll call him tomorrow
her: you do that
her: you realize they could make a whole person like that?
her: made of little wheels
her: two people, actually
him: not people. machines.
her: machines
her: i imagine lying on this person
her: i mean machine
her: shaped like you
her: while you do the same
her: under, over, whatever
her: a machine shaped like me
her: etc.
him: etc?
her: the doing of things
her: the making and breaking
him: it was my first thought
her: of the world
him: sounds bumpy tho
her: true
her: anyway i have a better idea
her: it’s for when you go to sleep
her: it’s something i want you to do
her: will you do it?
him: sigh
him: yes
her: on your back
her: with both hands
her: touch your
him: sigh
her: eyelids
her: lips
her: and then the place on your neck by your earlobes
her: gently
her: that is where i will kiss you
him: smiling out loud
him: sol
her: will you do that?
him: yes, I will
him: for you
him: yes
her: don’t just say you will
him: I so fucking will
her: i will do it, too
him: ah
him: I love that
him: which ear?
him: both?
her: both hands
her: both sides
her: both eyes
him: but how are you going to handle this?
her: ?
him: when it comes to kissing
him: actual kissing
him: gotta be one then the other
her: one eye
her: the other eye
her: and so on
him: back and forth, like reading
him: ?
her: yes
her: with your eyes closed
him: yes
her: like you tried to do
him: yes
her: before